I can't let go

I still miss Mawai Camp...

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Was freaking bored as I started to surf around blogs. Then I found this thingy on andrea's site which she apparently asked me to do (indirectly). Oh well, here goes.


1) What's your ambition?
I have seriously no idea. Just let me flow with the current~~

2) Who is more important to you? Friends or Boyfriend?
Friends, definitely! Like hell I'd be gay.

3) Who is the person you trust most?
JocelynTing, from my primary school.

4) Do you have enough confidence?
How do you measure confidence?

5) Do you think you're approachable?
Maybe? I hope so.

6) Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after rain?
Which theory do you want me to give: the scientific, or the "God's promise" theory?

7) What is your goal for this year?
Know my ambition.

8) Do you believe in eternity love?
As far as I hate to admit it, yes.

9) Have you broken someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?
Yes, but not to the point of suicide. Its kinda fun watching her cry though. I'm so sadistic.

10) What feeling do you love most?
To know that someone is there for me when I'm down.

11) What are the requirements that you wish from the other half?
There's a whole long list. But I'd say that I'd want someone who's beautiful in character. Of course, she must be able to make me whole, otherwise she wouldn't be called my "other half".

12) List out 5 bestfriends of yours.
Ashre, Joel, BrianMark...the other two may be a bit embarrassed to see their names here.

13) Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
No. There are very superficial people out there y'know.

14) What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Nothing. Life is getting so boring,, I don't wanna live it anymore. I'm not being emo here, mind you.

15) Do you love yourself?
*kisses biceps*. Oh what were you saying?

16) Describe the person who tagged you in 5 words.
Cannot, Desctibe, Within, Five, Words.

17) What have you done to please yourself?
okay this question is a bit awkward......

18) If time were to rewind, when will you want it to be?
Mawai Camp!!!! (26th may'08-28thmay'08)

19) Name one guy you are madly in love with.
refer to question 2 and 17

20) List 4 people out. Tagged them to do the quiz.
I refuse to. This may very well just go on, and on, and on, and on.....

Mawai Eco Camp @ Mawai Lama

Alright, sorry for not posting for the past 3 days. I've been away at this FREAKIN AWESOME camp in Kota Tinggi, Malaysia. So to make it up, this is gonna be a SUPER LONG post. Be ready.

26th May 2008
Campers gathered in school. Everyone except me and Nigel were wearing t-shirts with the school logo.(WTF!) Kang Chun wore his full uniform though. Thought there wouldn't be enough toilet paper. So Bryan, Melvin and I went to the gents to kope the toilet paper. It was definitely more than enough for the camp. We actually wanted to use it as towels! At this point, me and Nigel were hoping that our passports were still with Mrs Choong, so we wouldn't be able to go for the camp. But still, we got our passports back and headed for the bus. A pity that Justin couldn't make it. (and the others) Were introduced to Yi Hui and some other guy (whose name I forgot. Sorry!) Yi Hui is a girl, mind you.

Went to the Singapore customs and cleared it. Its really really fast when you've got the biometric thingy. It takes less than...a minute? Its literally like your ez-link card : tap, press, clear! Then at the Malaysian customs, it was slightly slower but was fast, nonetheless. We got on the Malaysian bus here, which was together with us for the next three days.

The bus.Nothing nice to be said here.

Returned passports back to teacher. Took a nap and played my FFTA along the way. Took a few shots from the bus. Notice that the glass has a weird...yellow tint making everything seem darker outside.

Evil clouds

So after a few hours of traveling by bus, we arrived at Mawai Lama, Kota Tinggi. Here, we had to take a boat. To where? Everyone though we were gonna go downstream the river and all that shit, but to our disappointment, it was just ACROSS the river, about 20-30 metres.

Upon crossing, we were greeted by the camp warden Mr Sutari. We went to the main hall where we were briefed on the main camp rules and all that stuff.

The funny thing about this guy was that he always had this overly enthusiastic tone. Ask my fellow campers and they'll probably tell you "WELCOME TO MAWAI ECO CAMP" with a very loud voice. But the even funnier thing was that everyone gave this cheer, even till the end of the camp. I think he found it sarcastic to the end of the camp. XD

Our living quarters was freakin zai. Open air, stretcher-like beds. I've never slept like that in any other camp.

After setting up our beds, we went for lunch. Lunch was awesome! We had chicken rice. Though the chicken was a bit black, but it still tasted good. You could even eat the rice by its own...okay at least I could. But this is really the BEST camp food I've ever tasted.

Next we went for the Animal Trap Demonstration done by John of the Orang Asli. Orang Aslis were the native malaysians of the area, at least i think they are. It started to rain, but it didn't really bother us. It was really really cool because we were shown some of the traps used for catching animals for food. Limitation, Adaptation, Innovation.

Having learned about the traps, we walked further on for the swampforest walk. Here, most of us started getting attacked by leeches and other insects. The best part of this segment was that you could see Natasha falling down when we were going up/down the area. She blames her shoes, but we blame her n00b climbing skills. She got the pwn3d of the day award. But that wasn't all. We also learned how to look for edible plants and berries along the way! Just as we were exiting the swampforest, there was a muddy path, or should i say soil plus water. Everyone here got their shoes wet. Pity those who were wearing sports shoes, but we as the elites, were wearing our Kampong Addidas. It was a simple rubber shoes with studs at the bottom. Built for hiking, this was our best tool for the day.

Went for a short tea break where the guard dog came to visit us. It wasn't really big, but it was cute nonetheless. For someone as cruel as me to say an animal is cute, it IS cute.Jasmine got really "awwwww"-ed by it.


With our wet shoes and socks, we then went on to do the Asli Water Obstacle Challenge. At first most of us were erked by the fact that the water in the area was so dirty. But we all gave it a try. It was a great test of balance, speed, control and strength. Kudos to Wenjie and Nigel for running across that barrel thing.

Washing up was quite...uhh...unusual. The toilets were small and dark.(I'm not complaining, just describing) There were times where we'd run out of water, but it was still an okay-okay toilet.Its like going back to basics. Just don't ask why I took pictures of the toilet.

After washing up, we went for dinner. The eating area was lit up by gas lamps and hurricane lamps. It was almost similar to a candlelit dinner, except with more flying insects around. We had some....okay i'm not sure what i've eaten for dinner that night, but all i can say was that the tau-ghey was good.

With a full stomach, we headed to the jetty for a firefly cruise. Torchlights and other light emitting things were not allowed. This was to bring out the true beauty of the fireflies. Sat next to Jasmine, where we saw our Gemini star. There weren't many fireflies that night because of the rain earlier but the stars were good too. As the fishermen say(in hokkien), No fish got prawn also good.

So what happen was that when we got back, I took the (badly out of tune) guitar and started playing some random stuff with Nigel. Then this OTHER instructor (I'm sorry I forgot your name) took the guitar and asked "want to jam?". Oh heck, I couldn't say no, could I? So we sat down and play a few songs. A few others joined in and started singing along too. He played slow. I couldn't blame him, it was a very sing-along kind of rhythm. But after a while I got DAMN SIAN. I think not just me, but those singing got sianzzzzz too. He played "Beat it" by Michael Jackson as if it was some lullaby. Seriously, WTF. So the moment he said "Okay guys, for those of you that wants supper, there's Milo and Biscuits at the back." I immediately stood up and passed the guitar to Nigel. But it was good though, people DID sing.

After the food and songs, we went to sleep on our simple but comfortable, stretcher beds. Some decided to stay up to play cards, but oh well, my body was attracted to the bed more. Lent my sleeping bag to Nat because she wanted it.

27th May, 2008
Woke up. ITS WAS EFFING FREEZING! Later found out that it was 22degrees. Imagine sleeping in an air-con room without blanket, with short pants, and a sleeveless shirt. Couldn't care less. Shivered all the way to the male toilet. (There wasn't much of a differentiation, but basically the girls just took the one nearer to the living quarters) It was raining the previous night, so the ground was relatively wet. Almost slipped and fell a few times. Washed up. Couldn't bathe with the cold water.

Went for breakfast. We had bread with all the jam. Simple, but delicious.

Set off for Gunung Arong. Took the boat across the jetty and went up the bus on the other side. Sat next to Nat. And just slept. (No! Nat and I are not together. She just so happens to lie on my shoulder while she was sleeping. I couldn't wake her up and say "Hey, I feel irritated with you lying on my shoulder. Get off". could I?)

Arrived. Got off the bus and got to see the amazing scenery.Wasn't exactly great, but still nice.
When we started our trip. We had to stop by a river to measure its perimeter and all that stuff.
Just a random question here : A bicycle is transported along the river by Traction, Saltation, Suspension, or Solution?
And so, we set off for this hike up Gunung Arong. The summit was about 300m high, about twice the height of Bukit Timah. Not many pictures taken here as hands had to be free.
Hiked, hiked and hiked even more. Talking to Andrea along the way made me realised that 3-5 isn't all THAT nerdy, though she started babbling about how running up would save energy and giving all that physics theories. Couldn't really care that much. (Sorry Andrea!)

Arrived at the summit. The view here wasn't as great as I expected because it was blocked by all the trees but still a refreshing award. Took out our lunch packs and started eating here. Then our instructor, Sanjay (dunno if i spelled it right) told us that we clocked 38minutes to climb the mountain, probably the fastest mixed school.

After eating, we went down to the other side of the mountain. Going down the mountain was freaking fun. I started jumping around like a ninja, though it was dangerous. Where's the fun in life if you don't take risks! Upon reaching the bottom of the summit, we were greeted with another awesome view.The place looked a bit like the scene from Lost. We started playing the water. We even managed to get Mr Kesavan drenched!

10 minutes of playing were all that we were given, but it was sufficient. We got into our shoes and started our hike over to the other side of the coast. Then we had to cross this area where water was up to my neck level. It sucked when I got wet. You could constantly hear me saying something repeatedly if you were there. I don't wanna mention it here.

Dried off, got onto bus, sat next to Nat, and slept. Nothing much to be said here.

Arrived back at Eco Camp. Washed up, and had dinner. Once again I had no idea what i was putting in my mouth, but it still tasted good. The "candles" were our entertainment of the night. We saw a moth flying to the fire, touched it, and just died. The funny thing was that it didn't even circle around it or anything, just fly straight.

After eating, we started to prepare for our campfire program. Our group did the Spongebob Campfire song.

The campfire was quite a disappointment. The fire couldn't start because the logs were wet. It turned out to be burning on the kerosene all the way. Saniyah was the MC. Was quite okay i suppose, for an impromptu thing. Headed back to the living quarters to play some cards.

Just as we thought the night was over, uncle Sutari brought us out for star gazing. It was really really cool because most of us had never seen stars this beautiful before. We learned how to find the north using the inverted bear thingy, and the south using the southern cross. Saturn is pronounced SEH-TURRRRRNNNN. and Melissa, its not that the stars don't guide you, is you can't read the stars properly XD.

So we went back, played MORE cards, and watched Nigel talk to Kehui. Then went to sleep.

28th May, 2008
Woke up, had some noodles for breakfast. Washed up, and then dismantled the stretched beds. Bought a few stuff at the souvenir place. Took our bags and left for the jetty. There was this uber cute baby waving at us when we left.
Took the bus to to the waterfall recreational park. The view there was magnificent. I've been there when i was younger, but now, after learning how waterfalls are formed, I got to appreciate it a lot more. So after everything, we took the bus back to Singapore. I'll let the pictures do the talking here.

Yukie The Scarie

Away...

Found this video off youtube. freaking cool. gonna try and do one over the holidays.



Leaving for Mawai tomorrow. Gonna miss a few people here and there, definitely not my mum though.

gonna upload the the talent night videos soon.

This is still freakin cool.

Tim and Mel : thanks guys. really helped after reading/hearing those stuff that you all typed/said =]

My Emo Post

Disclaimer : do not read this post if you think that Zhen Ming is a very happy dude that thinks everything is perfectly fine in his life. This is a very VERY emo post, so don't read it if it's going to distort your image of "The Happy Zhen Ming"



Sometimes when I think about the stuff that I'm doing...it makes me just wanna give up on everything i have.Studies, bball...EVERYTHING

Studies? yeah. Got pretty terrible results. Well..not as terrible as compared to some. I think i'm more...disappointed instead.

I know its only the first semester, and I know its "normal" to have such results. But as I look back at my past results, I realized that I've never improved ( though i didn't deprove)

Its really sad when i though i feel so confident in scoring for exams, and then get horrible results for it. I keep telling this friend of mine to "not give up"...but what happens? She still did badly. Now i finally know what it really is like to be in her shoes.

And then there's basketball. well...yeah. standard procedure : da-dui. and according to this standard procedure, it tells me that i'll NEVER do well here, especially with horrible jiaobu and terrible shooting accuracy. Though there was once, (I emphasize on the word ONCE) where i actually scored ONE shot that was pretty satisfying. Everything felt natural...until SOMEONE had to tell me "Hey! not bad sia...not bad for Cdiv standard!". You know it really sucks when you put it so much effort to TRY and learn it, getting it right, and only to get criticized because you FINALLY did something right for once, which seems to be a bad thing after that.

Then there are also times when i'm open, where apparently nobody is marking me. I'd try to signal to the ball controller to pass to me, and at least give me a chance to get those two points in...BUT NOOOOO. He had to go and pass to the guy on the side, then suay suay kenna intercepted. Like WTF lah. Come on, he already knew that i was signaling to him to pass the ball to me. It really sucks when you've worked so hard, and then not be allowed to be able to use it. Its like you're working for no cause.

Then lastly, there's God. As Gary was closing for us in prayer, I looked around and saw everyone closing their eyes and bowing their heads. You know how your youth leader keeps telling you "Have Faith, Have Faith." Its just too hard for me. I don't see the point in loving someone that doesn't seem to exist. Its almost the equivalent of loving Santa Clause, but only he tells you he has MUCH BETTER gifts compared to toys. (i'm sorry God, if i offended you)

I really don't know what to do now. My life feels like its going around in circles, coming back to the same person I already was 5, or even 10 years ago. My life has lost its meaning all of a sudden.But then, I don't think it ever had a meaning to begin with....

Give up zhen ming, stop wasting your time

Random Joke

Teacher:- "Right, there are five birds sitting on a telephone line. A farmer comes along with his gun and shoots one of them. How many are left?"

Little Johnny:- "None Miss".

Teacher:- "Could you tell me why?"

Little Johnny:- "Well Miss, when the farmer shot the bird, the sound of the gun would have frightened the other birds away".

Teacher:- "Well, the answer I was looking for was four. But I like your thinking."

Little Johnny:- "Miss, while were asking questions, could I ask you one?"

Teacher:- "Its a bit irregular, but go on then"

Little Johnny:- "There are three women sitting on a bench in the park, eating ice lollies. One of them is licking the lolly; one is biting it; and one is putting it in and out of her mouth. Which one is married?"

Teacher (rather embarrassed):- "Err... I suppose it was the last one."

Little Johnny:- "Well Id have said the one with the wedding ring. But I like your thinking."

You guys are BLESSED!

"I like hanging out. Gotta problem with that?"



Gonna summarize today's event's really quickly.

Assembly :
YOU ARE BLESSED! That was the catch phrase of the day. Apparently Mdm Rani kept talking about how blessed we are, being far from the places where we'd be hit by cyclones , earthquakes and all sorts of natural disasters. Though I still think we'd all die if we get hit by an earthquake. Then Singapore would probably be the next Atlantis!

Relief Period :
Went to library. Tried writing part 4. couldn't do much.

AMaths :
Mr Sam, oh, Mr Sam. You really gotta work on speeding up your teaching.

Recess: nothing to be said here.

English :
Oh boy...now we have holiday homework. But it got kinda better knowing that Emmeline's friend (Carina?) is also my Friend's friend! (Charmaine). How much smaller can Singapore get!

Chemistry:
Went through last bits of MYE paper. Jayraj and Aziz got detention for playing chess at the back of the class. (orhbie-quack!)

Went to have lunch with the ex 2-3 people. Kinda fun talking to them after so long. Went up for Mawai Eco Camp briefing at 1345hrs. Started going all racist and yo-mamma on Justin.Won't say much or people might REALLY get insulted.

Then left for soccer. Got really pissed off with those malay buggers. They still seem malnutrition-ed every time i see them.

Went back to shoot basketball. Nothing much to be said. Just shoot.

Back home.Having dinner, rushing off to tuition. I'm soooooooooooo busy.

Squareroot of 20 = 4.472135955(i got bored and started memorizing this in class)

Jobs

Ever wondered why your parents always disliked going to work?

Here's why.

Though I'd have to admit that when my mum scolds me, I find it more of a...entertaining device to just reply her with very very sarcastic remarks, making her FLARE UP even more.

But oh well. Nothing emo to blog about today. Enjoy the upcoming few days!

Bring Me To Life - Evanescence

"Bring Me To Life - Evanescence"

I was randomly surfing around Youtube and I saw this video. It brings back a whole lot of memories from primary school. Well...at least I remember Zhen Qin singing the guy part and Jocelyn singing the uber uber high pitched girl part. Jocelyn has a freaking awesome voice.

Nothing much to blog about today. Today's just...plain boring. And I still have no idea of what Vesak Day means, other than it being another public holiday.

SA1 results

"Got two people i scared ar! Bring it on man!"

16th of May, 2008. Today was the day we got back our results and here it is, for you to laugh/compare/feel sad etc etc etc

English paper 1 : 35/60

English paper 2 : 23/50


Chinese paper 1 : 15/70

Chinese paper 2 : 18/90


Amaths : 69/80

Emaths paper 1 : 25/40

Emaths paper 2 : 42/60


Physics paper 1 :17/25

Physics paper 2 : 23/55


Chemistry paper 1 : 17/25

Chemistry paper 2 :25/50


Geography : 30/50


Elective history : 15/30


Social Studies : 13/30

And yes...thats my results. Felt pretty horrible about it. So i decided to go and play soccer with the guys. Damn it felt good to kick balls around in the sun. (okay that sounds pretty wrong, but i think you get my point)

Though its kinda funny how little malay kids join gangs and think its cool to ride bicycles with big caps..

Ah well..I don't wanna go too racist over here or I'll probably get sued or something. I'm gonna keep it short here today because I've got training tomorrow morning. So yeah..piece out!

I still think exams aren't the only way to prove your intelligence.

Alone time!

"How bout we shoot him, THEN ask him questions. I still think that hamster deserves to die though."


Today, was yet another boring day. This time, woke up at 12. Never woke up this late before. Switched on my comp. Got on msn and chatted with ChunHong a bit. You have my support, tiger!

Then, it was the worst part of today happened. MY COMP CRASHED!!! like wtf? its getting old. I mean, my comp is literally old. With 40gb of memory space and only 128mb of RAM, this is literally scrap metal.

So, what can you do with a dead comp? Ignore it and continue writing that uber long, emo essay!

So I sat down at my desk, with a pen and my foolscap paper. Started on with my journey of what seemed to be a never ending story. Wrote and wrote and wrote. By the time I finished it was about...3.30pm? Typed it out on Microsoft Word for some of my closer friends to read. its 1170 words long, yo.(Part 3 to be out soon :D )

Went down for lunch, AT 4! I felt more of a tea break than lunch. But I couldn't care less. Food was food after all. Better to have it than not.I pity those people in Myanmar and China. No food, bad sanitation. They're gonna die man...I finally see the point in learning Geography.

Went to JEC arcade after that. Also concluded that everything there is condemned. There was this two ah-lian girls who kept on hitting the Tapz card scanner in the hopes of getting a free game. Its kinda funny when they do it, and then end up tapping their card and crashing in Beginner, with lap times of 20.00.

Went back home...and just SLEEP...again. This time, woke up at 8. Ate dinner...and here I am..blogging. There's seriously nothing much to do.

OH MY F! I just realised tomorrow is the release of the results... I don't think there's much I can say here...So all the best, Sec 3s!

Street Soccer at same place. Hope to play better, and NOT get cramps. =]



Okay, Melissa. I did not force this one. *gives innocent face*

Boredom + Rain = Sleep

"CoffinXP comes entirely equipped with Dota, CounterStrike, GrandTheftAuto, and many top games. Pwn in peace."


Well...today was a terribly boring day. Woke up at 10. It was raining. Felt the urge to just stay under the blanket and continue sleeping for another hour or so.Smsed Melissa. Found out that 10.30 is actually early for her.Got out of bed.

Bathed and washed up. Ate a bit of stuff. Set up electric drum set. Played on it for a while. Never felt so good to play drums again after so long. Started to drizzle again. Got really really bored here so i decided to go back to bed.

Woke up at 9pm. Didn't bother to have dinner. Came online with laptop. Bloody auto-right click thingy get irritating after a while. Shared my uber emo essay with some. Part 2 to be out soon.

I guess thats it for today. I lead a boring life.

Oh, here's a random quote for fun.
"A break up is like a broken mirror. It is better to leave it broken than hurt yourself trying to fix it."

haha...4 in one day.Thats a record man

Men and soccer.

"I'm telling you women can't drive. Look what happened now!"

Okay this is gonna be a long post...

Emaths paper 2 today was pretty simple.With just a few screw ups here and there, i think i'll be contented if i score a B3-B4.

But the highlight of today was probably the 5 hours plus of street soccer under the hot sun without food.Best thing of all, there were over 20 odd people there. Its a record, people.

With longer-than-average legs, its pretty hard to control the ball. Not that i'm saying people with shorter-than-average (like cough*jiewei*cough) can control the ball well. It kinda sucks when you try to turn around to get the ball, only to see its not there.

BUT, its not entirely THAT bad.

I managed to score 2 goals, which was pretty much the average number of goals everyone there scored.

But also having longer-than-average legs with higher-than-normal jump height sucks more when you try to go for a header, and get a nasty cramp in BOTH your legs upon landing.

Picture this in your head...

"Its mine, ITS MINE!!!"
*jumps for the ball whilst putting arm on teohan, trying to push him to get extra height*
*ball hits head/head hits ball, whatever*
*feels cramp WHILE in mid air*
"Oh shit, i'm screwed."
*BAM!* *lands with loud thud, produces tremors simultaneously*
"AHHH!! CRAMP AR! LEFT LEG...no no no...RIGHT LEG. AIYA BOTH LEG LA!"
"oowwwwwwwwww...."

For those of you who still can't visualise it, it hurt, A LOT.

Game stopped. Left the court. Rested.

Sometime around here, another team came in. This team consisted of Randy, Justin, Filbert, and Engleng.

Nobody expected anything spectacular, "basketballers probably can't play soccer very well."

We were all proven wrong...

This crazy team kept pwning everyone with a 3-0 score. They're imba, seriously.I couldn't believe them, so i gathered some guys and joined as "next team". Would our fate be the same as the rest, being trashed with a 3-0 score? or would we be able to score at least one, leaving the court with our heads held high...

Well, just to speed things up a little, we lost. 3-0. my cramp almost came back, but i knew that wasn't our best. By then it was around 3pm. Everyone was sweaty, tired, and hungry...all with abnormally tight muscles. We decided to call it a day. Retreated back home and found this video online.(man, killsometime.com has seriously a whole lot of random shit)



I just wasted 5 seconds of your time making you squint your eyes to read this.

You got pwn3d

"What cheu lookin' at, punk? Ain't seen a soldier before? Huh, HUH?"



Okay now Melissa's gonna think i abused that little dude getting this picture.

Yeah baby, YEAH!

Finally we're down to our last day tomorrow, Emaths paper 2.Somehow i dont feel like studying, i doubt anyone does.

Today's chem was...screwed i guess. Nothing much to say. When you screw something up, its just screwed.

Borrowed YunHao's cube to practice. Best time is still 1.54

Oh well, guess today was a boring day uh.

For those of you who think the previous post was to PURPOSELY attack Peilin or something, no i'm not. But we've cleared up the confusion so i guess everyone's fine now.

and oh, good/bad/i-don't-give-a-damn-about-this news. Mr Boay's posted to Jurong.I dunno about you, but i'd rather have him take our class.


And random catchline for the day
"I think you have great stamina, because you keep running through my mind!"



Yeah I promise...just someday we'll get it done, together =]